i want to freeze this moment in time. and remember this moment for life.
GOLD WITH HONOURS.
i love nymd. i love the dancers. i have no regrets. a gold with honours our dreams have finally came true. really 7 months of hard work and 7 minutes on stage. ( and a few seconds more) i believe we all made it through. the blood, sweat and tears. we showed the world we are 'damn bloody good' as quoted in from joanne from mr raj.
i remember flashes of the dance, the seven minutes but i remember more of our journey. of the seven minutes i dont remember running out, i remember psyching myself to be angry and "kill" them all. next i remember was hitting every single stroke together with mam aka yunyi. i remember faintly running into the circle. i remember pushing my sword into the air and "chopping" it down so hard that it made a huge sound. i remember looking at the empty audience seats at the side or my eye to estimate position and i dont really remember our clash. i remember i landed a but sideways my body but i held there and forced myself not to move a single part of myself till it had to jump down. i dont remeber running out as fast as my legs could carry me though i know i did. i dont remeber walking out and doing the flash flash thing with our hands the twinkle star thing. but i remeber while falling to my knees, i willed msyelf to stay still despite i fell too hard and was going to fall over. and stayed there. i remeber hearing felicia's 'DOWN.' but not the 'GO'. and the next thing was running into the wings get our props and to get hilary's flag and walk out. and i held the flag too high and i am so sorry the light. i banged the light on the way out.
the next thing we knew was we're out int eh holding area and we started to YAY! we did it. and suddenly i felt exhausted of my energy i felt limp and didn't have proper energy to hug hug mam. then when the teachers, instructors and supporters came out. we started to cheer and all only to be hushed my the security guard that he was going to throw us out.and we did a low hurray! and boy i had no regrets when i stepped off the stage, first time ever. really. that feeling of totally NO REGRETS that we did our best.
thankyou list. ( its late)
to mam for fighting with me and eh stealing my imaginary boyfriend? to look fierce?all the way!
to lil' mam for being with maria
to hilary for talking out with me that day and being the 'hero' of the dance
to felicia the person who made me the props auntie and rushing out to get props
to patricia my fellow shield buddy who is my 翻身 pair
to bernice who is forever ber! and being iwth me during mornings
to pat and ber the pair same line as me and mam to be "fronting" ( so called)
to junning for improving
to estelle and junning for being the centre centre for war
to eileen and estelle for being such good leaders and leading us all the way
to enrui, the lovely egg for the stunts and everything from joy and fun throughout the journey
to chityin for endearing to the audience and judges
to vinette and huzhe for being the nice enemies who die after being poked by hilary
to aileen ( i have mixed feelings really) for issuing war for enemies
to yihong the blur blur person who issue war and being crazily mad all the time
to jac for being fierce and trying to be harder
to siyu for being so strong after being injured
to shirley who endured the pain to do the syf with an injured knee
to marianne for lasting throughout the last minute and doing so well and fierce.
to jody my fellow ahma ( dont ask me why)
to sylvia the auntie for being such good examples for the enemy shields to learn from
to cheryl for motivating me when i was down and being with me
for mr raj for having this concept and reminding us and telling us what we needed to hear and encouraging us and motivating us to do no only well but very well.
for mr gordon who didn't ever give up on us though we were naughty and undisciplined sometimes and being caring about all of us injured or not and treating us like his "babies". for cleaning up our dance and doing so much choreography and spending time to clear up certain small sections. for almost having your heart jump out watching our dance over and over again.
to ms chan for motivating us and telling us what the dance needed from another point of view and for giving me a hug( though i had props all over) before the competition and being concerned about my injury while doing my makeup.
thankyou instructors and ms yeo for caring about my injury
to ms yeo for being there for us. i know that some dancers aren't happy with stuff but i think it is greatly because she cares a lot and really feel sorry that we have to go through so much stress. and its true. for scolding us and "protecting" us to prevent unwanted comments to encourage us. and for being with us backstage all the way. ( for jumping with yunyi!) and for really bothering to care about my injury and to understand what i was trying to say without crying due to the pain.
to ms goh, though not a really like wow huge role but giving us feedback at camp and also being with us and cheering and for us. and being so patient with the 32 of us with high inertia and dont want to move to the bus till i realised and hit me she was trying to get us moving to the bus because i heard but i didn't process. (till the extent she said she wanted to take a spear and poke us to get us up the bus, but obviously we heard and said, eh take the weapons away!)
for mrs teo for supporting nymd.
for mrs sandy tan for supporting
for mrs tieh who came to support
for vice principal mrs chek for supporting and encouraging us.
then results, all of us werei n dance studio waiting for results . everyone was so anxious. even ms goh was there with us. and it was like ten and no results yet. then suddenly eileen and estelle both received an sms and estelle went "you all are going to be so happy, we got what we wanted!" and everyone started cheering and suddenly we all started crying. then aileen asked it it true? and they went ' yes, GOLD WITH HONOURS". and everyone started to cry. me and sober enrui started to have tears welling up and eye began to become red. and in the end the both of us cried too. marianne was crying so badly "gold with honours", she was sobbing. and then we all hug hug hug. then ms goh came and said, "my dear girls, you all have your gold with honours, why are you all crying? let us cheer for ourselves!" and this time, felicvia lead teh cheer and we were all cheering while tearing.
and felicia said "what are we waiting for? lets tell the school!" and they ran to the quadrangle, canteen screaming like mad chickens "gwh" and the rest of us dry our tears and try to go back to class and me ber pat yunyi hilary and the rest went out and halfway me adn ber decided not to go canteen but turn back to class and realised we were like face to ms goh and nicely she smiled seeing our teary eyes and all and we went back to class.
and ms yeo told us what happened when she went to get results and wow. she cried too. and told us mr raj was asked to go up to share and all those stuff and she said she was gave us each a hug. and she said its really a golden gold with honours. (= and its true.
well, I LOVE YOU NYMD-ERS! for making this happen, we're all in this together and we really did it. because, we will be perfect dancers ( think daughters) HEH. ((: let us rise to greater heights.
i will miss everything. i am starting to miss it. its not as fast as hatfull because this one i did it with no regrets giving my life to fight for what we aimed for. and the journey will be etched in my mind. it will never be the same. seniors will be gone soon. we will be senior of the seniors soon. enrui would be gone. i will miss the times we whine together or fight together as ONE NYMD. i love you all!
nymd forever.
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Angel Of Music ; 5:53 AM ;