just a moment ago math test was over, now all the tests i've taken so far are all back...
they aren't too bad. but could have done better... and my class is super pro and clever i should say. already chem and math have full marks! and maybe ha even has full marks for physics? dont know ..
can't go back mbs tmr. i am feeling sad about it. because i haven't heard from mrschan for so long and then! i can't go back. no choice.. i rather not risk my life. and soldier on.
i know all of us are feeling like sad over what mr r did today to mr g's blocking and all that. i was quite shocked just by looking. and i realised after lil' mam told me. we've wasted our whole saturday. that saturday in the quadrangle to block and do formation and almost half under the sun. with mr g. and yet... i dont get it why. but its done? i really dont know anymore. the piece's changing a lot. and mr r changed the front part too. and its like i think ripping of mr g's stuff. sigh.
after hearing the music for fearlessly feminine again after formal CCA today. and the seniors dancing. i feel so wave of nostalgia? like when i was just a sec1. i used to stand there and watch the seniors. and just watch and be so mesmerised. and how good they were and just watching them train and train for that piece. i felt so nymd. and i was and am proud to be a modern dance. our batch think also feels the same way. and at least me and hilary i guess would tell people proudly. i am from moderndance even when i was just a new junior then. i remembered when we first met mr r we were intimidated, scared but yet motivated by that to try. and i believe we tried we raised our own bar. and we did it. our own batch. nymd sec1s05' i think even end of sec1 i was already so comfortable with the whole nymd. because of production i guess. and now? i dont think the juniors would like tell the whole world i am from modern dance. much more after their scolding today.
i miss the first two years. a lot a lot. with jolene regina liuqian and everyone around. i know my batch was considered very dao and all that to seniors but look at us now. we have moved so far. the journey we had. the batch-ness feeling. the we are one feeling. and we cried together when we got scolded by mr r esp. during production period then. and the drilling into us becoming early sec2 seniors that we would be fronting the next syf. and how could we do that when we were like that. the questions motivating us to work harder. and be up there. and now here we were doing the next syf. and to train hard and get it back. everything. the old feeling. its not there anymore. i dont feel it like WHOLE nymd. only my batch mostly cos maybe i am too busy. but i feel different. and plus syf its like everyone's concentrating on syf and sometimes become too cold to each other.. oh well. its part of life.
i better write letters soon! and study theory and ih. revise math and physics. and my chem iwant to do well! not only bio, chem, physics, but also math and chinese! having zhuolaoshi, makes me feel i want to do well. ih.. lacking in motivation but i should not let ms koh down!
i just pray for you to look over me
Angel Of Music ; 5:56 AM ;