to xinkai! i know it started from you. i read on ber's blog. (: so dont be angry with maria!
i wonder why. i am thinking so much grrrrr. am supposed to be trying to get enthu and all that for camp.. oh dear. just called pattie and clarified some stuff with her. so scary. but open mind open mind open mind! reinforce that. need to be off memorising stuff soon..
oh thankyou lil' mam for being there for me so fast on thurs. i was wanting to keep my ehh happiness? from within. cos need to concentrate on dancing right? but again i understand my position. i would never ever come first and i dont need to come first. i would always be behind there. standing behind here. waiting for her. because she is my jie. that's all. and its true isn't it. even ytd was the same? though i got to talk to her a bit after everyone left and when we were walking out of the dance studio.
i think i just have to hold on to my urge to read it. i want to read it and get it over. but yet i dont want to. because i fear. i dont know what to expect inside. she told me not to read it too soon.so i dont know at all. but i told her either sat and sun and most prob night for me. i think sat night? because sun later i dont want to not able to go to sleep before camp. or start crying or something. though i know i have to be strong. but i know its not very happy stuff inside and i really dont know too. and there's one more thing. open mind for that too. i seem to be needing open-mindedness.
jie, take care kay. please for goodness sake! i know its not intentional. but really really take care and try not. no, don't! do that again. i think afteri read it i would need to write to you. i guess so. that's my feeling for it.
camp. next mon to wed. jiayou elects. enthu then! and dance on thurs. and maybe a day out before me and jolene go off again. and if sharon can make it. oh we'd better kay?
suddenly i see, this is what i want to be
suddenly i see, why the hell it means to much to me.
from the song suddenly i see. i think it makes sense thought there's the word "hell" in it. but its just saysay i think. really i see why it means so much to me.
after jolene and her right, the senior batch seriously i am not close to them. so the only people left are my own batchies! dance batch mates. elects.
ber! thankyou for the muffins i know how you made it. ((= they are wonderfully delicious.
hilaryy!! maybe when you read this i'm at camp already. but i missed you so much can! lovelove see you soon!
lil' mam! maria dunno what to say! but lots of love from deep in my heart. and ever i think you'll just understand me. so that proves i really am so close to you! lovelove!
mam! i know you are going crazily mad. but maria will definitely miss you so dont worry. so to mam! (=
why it means to much to me.
though it hurts. <3>
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